Intimate Pathways

When Silence Speaks: Lessons From My Nervous System

This past weekend, I stepped into something new... I was invited as a lead speaker at an event on Sex, Intimacy, and Neurodiversity. I had prepared, reflected, and carried my heart into the space. But when it was my turn to speak, something unexpected happened — I blanked out. My nervous system froze, and all the words I had hoped to share scattered like leaves in the wind. I saw grey. 

In the moment, I felt embarrassed. The self-judgment came quickly... "I failed. I should have done better. Why couldn’t I just say what I planned?" But then, something deeper surfaced — the realization that what happened wasn’t failure at all. It was my nervous system doing exactly what nervous systems do when they perceive threat or overwhelm: moving into freeze to protect me. And isn’t that the very heart of what I teach? That our bodies are always speaking, always protecting, always guiding us back to safety?

The freeze response isn’t a mistake. It’s the body’s ancient way of pausing when things feel too much, too big, too fast. While my mind judged the blank-out as a failure, my body was showing me a live demonstration of the very nervous system wisdom I often share with clients and families. In a way, my body became my teacher in that moment.

Intimacy — whether with ourselves, our partners, or our communities — isn’t about polished perfection. It’s about showing up authentically. Sometimes that means words flow like poetry. Other times, it means we stumble, freeze, or fall silent. And still, connection is possible. In fact, intimacy deepens when we allow our full humanity to be seen — even the messy, uncomfortable parts.

What I wish I had said in that moment is this: Sex and intimacy aren’t just about pleasure or performance. They are about connection — to our bodies, our partners, our nervous systems, and our truth. And when we can honor the ways our bodies respond — whether through desire, vulnerability, or even freeze — we open new doorways to compassion and presence.

Instead of letting my embarrassment define me, I am choosing to let it empower me. This experience reminded me that courage doesn’t always look like delivering a perfect speech. Sometimes courage looks like showing up, freezing, and then staying present enough to keep going.

So if you’ve ever frozen, gone blank, or felt like you failed in a moment that mattered to you — know this... you are not a failure. You are human. Your nervous system is wise. And every time you show up, even imperfectly, you build resilience and deepen your capacity for connection.

My invitation — to myself and to you — is to embrace those moments when the body takes over. To meet ourselves with compassion instead of criticism. To remember that intimacy and connection are born not from flawless delivery, but from authentic presence.

Because in the end, it’s not about never freezing. It’s about learning how to thaw with grace, compassion, and connection.

With love and gratitude,
Tovah Petra 




Education’s Missing Piece: The Nervous System

For decades, our schools have focused almost entirely on the mind. We measure intelligence, assign grades, and reward academic achievement, often overlooking a vital part of the human experience: the body. From its very design, education has been head-centered, leaving out what actually drives learning, behavior, and connection—the nervous system.
Too often, behavior is treated as a “top-down” issue. A child who fidgets is told to “sit still.” A student who refuses to participate is labeled “defiant.” But behavior is rarely just a matter of choice or willpower. It is deeply embodied.

Our nervous system constantly communicates what the body needs—whether that’s safety, movement, or regulation. A child’s restlessness, withdrawal, or emotional outburst is information, not misbehavior. It is the body signaling that it needs attention, support, or a moment to reset.

When we view learning through a body-up lens, everything shifts. Instead of forcing children to conform to rigid expectations, we can recognize that a regulated nervous system is the foundation for focus, curiosity, and engagement. We can integrate movement, sensory experiences, and co-regulation into daily routines. We can understand that emotional safety comes first; cognitive learning follows naturally.

This approach does not replace academics—it enhances them. When the body feels safe and supported, the brain is free to learn, explore, and create.
Parents, teachers, and grandparents alike can benefit from understanding the nervous system’s role in learning. A child who is regulated and supported from the inside out is more likely to engage meaningfully with peers and teachers, persist through challenges without shutting down, and build resilience, confidence, and emotional intelligence.

By attending to the body, we cultivate classrooms, homes, and communities where children can thrive—not just academically, but socially, emotionally, and physically.
It’s time to rethink education. The body and nervous system are not extras or “nice-to-haves.” They are central to learning, behavior, and growth. When we embrace this perspective, we shift from correcting behavior to supporting the child, from controlling the body to guiding the mind—and from surviving school to truly thriving.

Because the missing piece in education isn’t more content, tests, or rules—it’s the body. And when we finally bring it back, everything changes.






Back to School, at Their Pace: Supporting Neurodivergent Kids with Somatic Attunement


As the back-to-school season ramps up, many parents and caregivers feel the swirl of emotions that come with re-entry: excitement, nervousness, and a deep desire for our children to feel safe, seen, and successful in their own way.
For those raising neurodivergent children—kids whose brains process the world differently—this season often requires a slower rhythm and a more attuned lens. Rather than pushing our children to conform to the school system's pace, what if we walked alongside them, prioritizing body-based trust and nervous system safety as the foundation for learning and growth?

Honoring the Pace of the Child
Neurodivergent kids—whether autistic, ADHD, sensory sensitive, anxious, or otherwise wired differently—often live in a world that moves too fast. The return to school can feel jarring, especially after a summer of freedom and self-directed rhythm.
This is where we as caregivers can slow down and attune. Attunement means listening with our whole selves—sensing their nonverbal cues, feeling into their emotional world, and trusting that behavior is communication.
Walking at their pace might mean extra time in the morning, more support during goodbyes, or less packed afternoons. Honoring their pace isn’t falling behind—it’s an investment in long-term resilience. A body that feels safe is a body that can learn, relate, and regulate.

Creating Somatic Safety
In my Whole Family, Whole Child approach, we see the body as essential to healing—not just for kids, but for caregivers, too.
Somatic safety goes beyond physical safety. It’s the internal felt sense of "I belong. I’m safe to be me." For neurodivergent children, even “normal” school settings can register as overwhelming or unsafe.
What helps build somatic safety?
  • Predictability and Structure: Visual schedules, practice runs, or gentle prep talks help their system orient.
  • Co-regulation: Your calm presence—even when you're working hard to stay grounded—helps anchor them. A deep breath or hand on your heart can go a long way.
  • Body-Based Tools: Support self-regulation through sensory kits, movement breaks, or playful language like, “Is your body in rocket mode or snail mode today?”
Safety opens the door for flexibility, connection, and growth—even in environments that aren’t a perfect fit.
The Power of the Attuned Parent
You don’t need to have all the answers. Your presence, curiosity, and connection are what matter most.
Maybe your child is clingy this year. Maybe they’re holding it together at school, then melting down at home. Or maybe they need a chewy necklace, noise-canceling headphones, or a quiet place to decompress. That’s not failure. It’s data.
Being an attuned parent means:
  • Observing before reacting: What’s their body trying to say?
  • Offering choices: “Want to jump 10 times or take a squish with your pillow?”
  • Celebrating coping: “You listened to your body and took a break. That was so smart.”
And don’t forget—you matter, too. Your capacity, your regulation, and your softness are part of the picture.
You Are Not Alone
Raising a neurodivergent child often means going against the grain—advocating for accommodations, navigating misunderstandings, and educating others who don’t see your child’s brilliance.
But you’re not alone. You’re part of a growing movement of caregivers redefining success—not by gold stars, but by connection, regulation, and wholeness.
This back-to-school season, remember:
  • It’s okay to go slow at their pace.
  • Your child’s needs are not an inconvenience.
  • Your intuition is powerful.
When we walk at the pace of our children and attune to their nervous systems, we lay the foundation for confidence, resilience, and self-trust. And isn’t that what real learning is all about?
Somatic Tips for a Smooth Back-to-School Transition
  • Start the Day With Body Connection: Stretching, bouncing, or animal walks help your child feel grounded before leaving the house.
  • Incorporate Breath Games: Blow feathers across the table, use pinwheels, or pretend to blow up a balloon with your hands to teach calm breathing playfully.
  • Use Visual Emotional Check-ins: Make a simple chart with faces or colors. Ask, “Where are you right now?” to support emotional literacy.
  • Offer Pressure or Deep Touch: Hugs, squeezes, or being rolled in a blanket like a “burrito” can help regulate and soothe overwhelmed systems.
  • Practice After-School Reset Rituals: Let your child decompress before anything else—maybe with water play, swinging, or lying under a heavy blanket.
Tovah Petra, MA is a Somatic Practitioner and the creator of the Whole Family, Whole Child approach, where she helps parents of neurodivergent kids create emotionally safe, attuned, and connected homes—while also nurturing their own nervous systems, relationships, and intimate connection along the way. 
Learn more at www.tovahpetra.com Magazine article featured in www.growingupinsantacruz.com August 2025. 


The Fight for Us ~ The Raw Truth About Long-Term Love

We’ve been through hell and back.
As young parents.
As partners.
As two people who had no idea what we were really saying “yes” to all those years ago.

Nearly 20 years together—and there were times we didn’t know if we’d make it.
We’ve stared down the face of divorce.
We’ve been inches from walking away from it all.

But God.
God has an order.

And we — like many others — did things out of order.
We rushed.
We skipped steps.
We made decisions from pain, from programming, from survival.
And we paid for it—in resentment, distance, misunderstanding, and deep struggle.

Because the truth is: we each came into this relationship carrying our own inner wounds.
Our childhoods.
Our unmet needs.
Our unspoken fears.
Our silent expectations.

We brought with us the stories we were told (or not told) about love, gender roles, marriage, sex, family.
We absorbed messages from society that said we had to perform instead of feel, succeed instead of slow down, keep it all together, even when everything inside was falling apart.

No one really taught us how to be in partnership.
How to repair ruptures.
How to hold space for each other’s pain while still honoring our own.
We had to learn all of that the hard way.
But still — we fought. 
Fought for us.
Fought for love.
Fought for our family.

And today, I can say: I am so damn grateful we did. And continue to do. 
Because here’s the truth no one tells you when you’re young and in love:
Marriage is not just romance and milestones.
It’s a soul contract.
It’s late nights in silence after a fight.
It’s forgiving when it’s hard.
It’s choosing to stay even when your body wants to run.
It’s growing… sometimes in opposite directions for a while… and then finding your way back to one another.

Marriage is sacred.
But it’s not always soft.
There are seasons of loneliness, even when you’re lying in the same bed.
There are days when you don’t recognize the person you married—or the person you’ve become.
There are decisions made in survival mode that ripple into years of repair.

And yet — when both people are willing to show up, look in the mirror, and try again—there can be something so unbreakably beautiful on the other side.
We’re not perfect.
We still bicker.
We still push each other’s buttons.
But underneath all of it — we are each other’s home. 

Marriage is not about avoiding the mess.
It’s about loving each other through the mess. 
It’s about unlearning everything that never served us—
and remembering who we really are.
It’s about learning to do things in order even if you didn’t get the order right at the start.

If you’re in the thick of it right now… if you're wondering if you’re going to make it, I want to tell you this:
It’s okay to start over — with the same person. 
It’s okay to admit you’ve both changed.
It’s okay to learn how to love each other again, differently. 

But both people have to fight.
Not against each other—but for each other. 
And when you do?
What’s on the other side is not just peace—it’s power.
A bond built through fire.
A friendship rooted in truth.
A home with strong bones.
A love that has been tested—and still stands.

So here’s to the ones still in the ring.
To the ones showing up to therapy, to hard conversations, to the vulnerability it takes to heal.
You’re not failing—you’re becoming.

I love you, Jonny.
Thank you for choosing this fight with me.
I wouldn’t want to do it with anyone else.





To Be Held & To Be Free



At the core of every human nervous system are two essential longings:
To be held.
And to be free.

These are not just abstract desires — they’re deeply felt needs, wired into the body from the beginning.
To be held is the need for connection, safety, and secure attachment. It’s the experience of being met emotionally — of having someone stay with you, not abandon or fix you, when you’re vulnerable, tender, or dysregulated.

To be free is the need for authenticity, self-expression, and autonomy. It’s the ability to take up space, speak your truth, and move in your natural rhythm without fear of being punished, rejected, or made small.
Most of us didn’t grow up with both.
Many of us learned we could be held only if we performed, pleased, or stayed “small.”
Or that we could be free only if we disconnected from others to protect our truth.

This is where somatic work comes in.
Because the body remembers.
And in relationship, these old patterns surface.

If someone shuts down, lashes out, or goes numb when things get hard — that’s not “bad communication.” 
That’s a nervous system doing its best to stay safe.
Without capacity in the body, relationship gets lost.

To build capacity, we must learn to feel safely in connection.
Not just cognitively — but somatically.
To stay with sensation.
To breathe through discomfort.
To allow emotion to rise and move without shutting it down.
This is the kind of embodied presence that creates secure love — especially in intimate partnership.

For men, this might look like:
“Can I stay with her emotion without needing to fix or flee?”
“Can I feel her energy rise without collapsing or controlling it?”
“Can I stay regulated in my body, so she can trust hers?”

For women:
“Can I allow my full emotional truth to surface?”
“Can I trust that I don’t have to shrink or manage him to feel safe?”
“Can I soften and stay open, even when it feels edgy?”

Feeling with each other — in real time — is the medicine.

When we bring co-regulation, nervous system attunement, and emotional permission into the field of love, both people begin to experience a radical truth:
I can be fully held.
I can be completely free.
And I don’t have to choose between the two.

This is the heart of somatic relationship work.
Not perfection, not control — but presence.
Nervous systems learning to dance with one another.

With care and devotion to the body’s wisdom,
Tovah Petra đźŚą


 
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Meet Tovah Petra

Whether it’s through Tovah Petra’s coaching, intimate groups, transformational workshops, or writing, Tovah supports individuals and couples in reconnecting with their bodies, deepening emotional intimacy, and cultivating relationships rooted in truth, pleasure, and self-trust. Tovah is a Somatica®-trained Sex and Relationship Coach, with a Master’s in Human Development and Social Change.

I help people grow their self-worth, embody their sexuality, and confidently express their feelings, needs, and boundaries — so they can build deeper, more fulfilling relationships and call in the kind of love that nourishes the soul.
All without repeating painful patterns in dating and intimacy — or unconsciously passing down shame, fear, or emotional disconnection to the next generation.

As a Somatica®-trained sex and relationship coach, I’m here to help you:
✨ Step into your full deservingness of the love, pleasure, and connection you long for
✨ Create secure, emotionally honest partnerships where your truth is welcome
✨ Experience some of the most enriching, transformative, and empowering emotional and erotic moments of your life


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